26th Chronicle

YOUR BAD DAY MIGHT BE MY GOOD DAY.

It's 8:31pm, and I'm lying on my comfort bed, hands tucked between my thighs, scrolling from one app to the other. Today was a less productive day. A couple of days have been like that recently. I think I'm writing to feel better for not being productive today. You can call it a way of appeasing my heart to stop beating me up for being unproductive.

Something is off, but I don't know what it is. I really wish I'd discover what it is sooner because I really hate this state in which I find myself.

However, the weather is cool, and I really love how it brings peace to me and calm my nerves. Something dropped in my mind today. I was conversing with a friend, and I mentioned how I wish these dark clouds would break into heavy rains already. I wanted the feeling that comes with being under a blanket, seeing a movie, and munching something sweet or delicious. It is one of the best moments one could look forward to. Listening to the rain pour down like heavy showers while you stare at it or just basked in its beauty. But a thought crossed my mind, and it struck me. If you were at this place(my mind brought the picture of this place to my mind), would you desire the rain to fall? The answer is a big no.

I remember this place. It was a little, rat and bug invested room, with a leaked roof and cracked walls and a barely standing window. Fortunately or unfortunately, one day, I slept over in this room. It was one of the longest nights of my life. Those bedbugs gave me PTSD. At around 4:30am or thereabout, it began to rain, and yeah, the roof started to leak. I was barely getting myself to sleep when it started to rain. You needed to see the disorganisation of the room, with water flooding in. It was indeed a bad state.

And so it occurred to me. Nothing is realky bad afterall, it only depends on the circumstances and events that led to that thing.

For example, killing is bad, but would you kill if it means defending yourself from being killed?

No day is really a bad day. If the day is bad, it's probably just bad for you because you're unlucky with the events of that particular day. Others might find your bad day quite interesting than you think.

So, there's no reason to get jealous of your neighbour or friend. Because when the sun is shining for him or her, it might be cloudy for you and vice versa.

All I'm saying is that this life no balance, so no pressure.